Monday, October 11, 2010
OK for those of you who don't know me or for the sake of this blog are new to my world... up till like today I have been a full time student working on her bachelor’s in Multi Media and Web Design. I am waiting the results of my appeal to see if I will be allowed to return to class tomorrow. Long story Short the D I got in my Photo Shop Class dropped my GPA down too low and now I maybe screwed. Somehow I am not that surprised and chalk it up to the long list of screw jobs I have gotten over the years. I am not saying it’s all someone else fault there needs to be some blame at my own feet and I am a big enough girl to know I am a fuck up thank you very much. However I got an ass chewing for something I never should have gotten and I was done wrong on a few levels. I was scared to do my project because it offended someone... Now normally I would tell the person to go fuck themselves but in this case I was trying to take the higher road... it blew up in my face and I had not only my mothering challenged but my Ethics, Morals and beliefs challenged and belittled.. All because I choose to pick a book about 2 men who would go to the ends of the world to save their family They are 2 of the hottest guys in books and written by one of the greatest gay erotic fiction writers in the world. I was Thrilled to be allowed to pretend to make his book into a DVD cover and Website. BTW I got a crappy grade I don't think it deserved because the website and the DVD cover were supposed to look alike... Hello in the real world do Movie DVD covers Look like the Movie Website??? I don't think so!!! I thought the teacher at least was going to grade my roughs but she didn’t... not that it would save me because sadly it won’t bring my GPA up enough... I am a good girl I try hard... I am what I am and I don’t want to change who or what I am... I don’t think I should to get by in school... I spent the last 4 terms playing nice... I use my clothed pictures of guys instead of the naked ones and I am super aware to no offend... So this semester threw me and threw me hard... I have lost my will to fight to write and to just be me... I still to this day do not understand what I did or said that offended this woman and sadly I don’t think I ever will... If I get to return to classes I have 2 ethics classes and a math this term... little known fact my ethics aren’t normal either lol... So this not so ordinary princess has her tiara in a knot and doesn’t know what to do... any thoughts feelings or suggestions?